Journal Entry 11.30.2015

It was raining when I was driving to Los Gatos Medical Center. For an abdomen ultrasound.
I glimpsed the movements of my organs on the screen. Wondering how harmoniously they must work in concert for my body to function well. As a whole.
At one point I heard the sound of oxygen flowing to my left lung. It sounded funny. A lone instrument from my orchestra.

Raining in November
I wish the rain
would cleanse all sorrows,
sins and impurities

So this world would be purified
and its heart prepared
to celebrate the holiday seasons
in love and in peace!

I Want to Love Life

If love is the universal force
to revolve the earth
then music is the magical power
to enliven our hearts

Whenever I’m physically sick
it is music which murmurs
the unspeakable and infuses
my heart with an ocean of life

I want to love life
the same way
as I love you

As a new-born baby
bursts out its first cry
As the mountain makes love
to the falling clouds

I want to love life as if
I had never been alive before

Anniversary 2015

As day crowns night in ecstasy
so does love our marriage

If our hearts and souls have darkness
we have stripped them naked

We are so close yet also so far apart
in which distance we have grown and expanded

We have tasted all the fruits of life
however sweet or sour they may arrive

We have danced the melody of the night waves
and awaken to the breathtaking sunrise
over the blue ocean

Your love breathes warmth and sweetness into my life
Your enduring patience has comforted me
thru pain and adversity

May our marriage last
thru the silence and tumult
of life
and time

We Fear Death

We fear death
the bottomless abyss

The eternal destruction
of personal existence

The mortality of the
immortality of youth

Or do we fear the dying process?

Inhale and exhale
and we step into the darkness

They say you should prepare
for your death while living

In ways such that death comes
as a bud is going to bloom

A lion is roaring in the woods
A breeze is rattling in the air

That’s how I want to face death-
like I’m coming home